The Art of Letting Go

Hi friends,
Actually I have so many blogposts that I do not have the guts to publish. However, I am confused with my own well-being. I thank everyone who have been with me throughout my hardships. I sincerely thank you for checking up on me. Just that these days, I feel like my depression is at a state that is so alarming. I needed help badly. I have no time to consult and I feel like nobody would understand. The ones who are close to me are starting to distant themselves from me. I am distancing myself from everyone as well. I am sorry. I do not want to bring any negative vibes in your life. Therefore, I chose to stay and be alone. I feel like everything triggered my sadness. It is so heartbreaking when the people you love wholeheartedly turned their backs on you. I know I will be okay, just give me time to heal and whenever I am recovering from my heartache, it is just one to another. I wish my family understands. I wish I could tell them that my condition is alarming and I needed help badly.


I am aware that I am already 24 this year. I recently turned 24 a few weeks ago. Birthdays are something that my mom used to make a big fuss of. This year, I feel so let down by my own family. At least, have the courtesy to give me a birthday hug or a birthday kiss. I miss you mom, I really do. People will tell me to move on, to let go. I am trying. But I have so much burden I have carried behind me for these past two years. I tried doing so many things to distract myself from this sadness. I feel physically sick as well. I am so stressed out to the point I fell asick on a daily.

 I have nothing to offer but please pray for my well-being and I wish to come back stronger than ever. I wish to become genuinely happy. These days I just feel like I need to portray myself as a happy person all day long and it is honestly draining. Thank you for the ones who always text or check up on me. You are the gems that I could never replace. Till then!

Love,

Keerasara